lirik yg menyentuh perasaan...

Karena ku sayang kamu...

seandainya kau ada disini denganku
mungkin ku tak sendiri
bayanganmu yg selalu menemaniku
hiasi malam sepiku
ku ingin bersama dirimu

ku tak akan pernah berpaling darimu
walau kini kau jauh dariku
kan selalu kunanti
karena ku sayang kamu

hati ini selalu memanggil namamu
dengarlah melatiku
ku berjanji hanyalah untukmu cintaku
takkan pernah ada yg lain

adakah rindu di hatimu
seperti rindu yg ku rasa
sanggupkah ku terus terlena
tanpamu di sisiku
ku kan selalu menantimu


*courtesy of LirikLaguIndonesia.net

menyentuh perasaan betul lagu ni...

Salam Aidilfitri...

Salam aidilfitri to all out there...
Me and my lil ones will be celebrating our Raya in KL... My friends will be coming over tomorrow... What shall I cook??? hmmm... planning to cook nasi minyak with beef rendang and fried chicken...

Happy Holiday to me and all out there...

been busy off late...

as mentioned, i've been busy off late... with assignments, with my lil one, with uproar issues... shall make my updates and upload photos soon... i'll try to find some time to do so... till then, cheers...

My personal make-up class

14/08/10... I went for a basic make up class coached by a friend of mine... she's a professional make up artist who have been in the line for 9 years... Prior to the day I was hesitated... should or should I not go for her class... Adding to my hesitation was my assignments which have yet to be completed... but I made up my mind to attend to her class... without me realizing it, I was transformed by my own hands... Thanks to Ayu from Sureanggun Bridal Boutique... She has made me realized that one could be transformed with their own hands... what more others... Look at couple of the photos... Not forgetting my other mates, Dr Akmal from Klinik Puteri, Kota Damansara who have transformed me to be a new person - she performed a lipolaser treatment, fat transfer and also radio frequency treatment on me... Not forgetting Alin who has all along supported and comforted me of whatsoever decisions that I made... Next would be my dream... Can't wait to fulfil my dream... I pray to Allah so that my dream would come true...

ermmm...

it's been quite sometime since I last jotted my experiences in life... This was because I was bogged down with class assignments, projects, job, etc... Alhamdulillah, everything has been completed and one semester had passed... another to come... My peers and I had just completed our seminar project last saturday whereby all of us presented our research paper in the seminar for completion of the subject..

I have made a pledge to myself that while waiting for the next semester to come, I would prepare myself upfront... as knowing myself - i am a last minute person... thus, I would only prepare things when the time comes... Yup.. that is the negative part of me... on the other hand, I do not like to procrastinate... weird, right??? I, myself more often than not am confuse with myself... The thing is, I would start preparing things earlier, but knowing that I still have ample time to complete the task, or realizing that it is still long way to go, I would then start sparing my time for other things...

Anyway, at this hour, I can spare more than my usual time for my son, airil najmi... he has been besides me in any situation... while I was reading my journals, doing my assignments, preparing notes for my classes, etc... he has been keeping me a company since day one, (not to mention that he has helped me to type my assignments-if anyone understand what I mean)... Hence, this is the time for me to spare the same for him in return...

feel the fear ...and do it anyway...

Has anyone heard or read the book - Feel the fear ...and do it anyway by Susan Jeffers?? I have yet to finish reading it... While I was in the LRT this morning and was reading the book, it stunt me when I read it.. phrase after phrase...all the while I knew that I was living in despair... till that very moment... the moment I was reading the book - I realize that I have an option to choose... I can continue living in despair or change my life by start cherishing my life immediately... Living in a position of 'pain' or a position of 'power'.

A minute after reading the statement, I decide to change my perception... I want to be in control - of my life and the situation... Yes... this is just a normal paradigm shift that definitely has knocked everyone and anyone on the street... whether they notice it and allow the shift to take place,I wouldn't know... But I know that I allow it to change me and I want it to last forever... So that I can cherish it with all the positive thoughts and live my life happily as I get what I want in life...

Pengorbanan...

Terkadang, kita tak akan dpt semua apa yg kita inginkan dlm satu masa... selalunya kita perlu korbankan satu utk mendapat satu yg lain... sama ada apa yg kita korbankan itu berbaloi atau tidak pada masa hadapan, itu adalah satu 'calculated risk' yg terpaksa diambil...

Bagi diri saya, sekali saya melangkah, payah untuk saya berundur... apa jua yg saya lakukan hari ini tak akan membuat saya berpatah balik ke masa lama saya... Bohonglah saya jika saya katakan tak pernah memikirkan kenapa, mengapa dan bagaimana hidup saya menjadi begini dan begitu, tapi saya selalu mengingatkan diri saya agar tidak mahu melayan perasaan lantas merasa menyesal terhadap apa jua yg berlaku...

Saya amat berharap agar apa jua keadaannya, dia akan merasa tenang... Sungguhpun di ketika ini dia sedang bertarung dgn keadaan... keadaan yg tidak menyebelahi dia, walaupun bukan 100% kesalahannya... namun apabila dia menjadi mangsa keadaan, apa jua yg benar, menjadi salah belaka... dan apa jua yg perlu dilakukan, menjadi perkara yg tidak sepatutnya dibuat...

Dalam apa jua keadaan, saya tetap di belakangnya... dalam apa jua situasi, saya berjanji yg saya tetap di sisinya...

Kenapa kesedihan menjenguk kehidupan??

Kenapa kita perlu bersedih? Kenapa kita perlu menghadapi kesedihan? Tersentak saya bila saya sendiri melaluinya... Apa jua bentuk kesedihan yang mendatang sebenarnya mematangkan diri... At least pd diri saya sendiri... Kesedihan datang dan pergi dalam hidup saya... Kegembiraan dan kebahagiaan pun begitu... Siapa yang tak mau kan kebahagiaan kan?? Tapi harganya begitu mahal untuk saya.. Mampukah saya mengekalkan kebahagiaan dalam hidup ini??

Hanya satu kebahagiaan yang sehingga kini tak pernah mengecewakan saya... Bersama buah hati saya yang satu ni... Najmi... Dialah permata hati saya... Buat lah apapun, dia tak pernah mengecewakan... Keletah2nya menghiburkan... Kata2nya sentiasa membuat saya tertawa... Setiap hari, ada je vocab baru yang dibawa balik..
Apa jua kesedihan yang menjenguk pasti terubat pabila bersama Najmi...

Namun ada ketikanya, kesedihan yang menjenguk tak mampu saya lawan... Ada ketikanya, saya kalah sungguhpun berkali-kali saya cuba bertahan... Hanya pada-Nya tempat saya mengadu... Saya yakin, ini semua dugaan-Nya... Semoga dengan dugaan2 ini, saya akan jadi lebih kuat untuk menghadapi hari depan dengan si comel saya ini... InsyaAllah...